When I Am Not There

When I am not there

Set up your own alarm

For I cannot wake you up

With a kiss on your head

Or by the sound of the coffee machine

When I am not there

Take the taxi back home

Whenever you go for groceries

As it will be so heavy

For you alone, to carry all the burden

When I am not there

Savour your mouth with the best cuisine possible

Drink fine wine and fruit juice

Even if the meal is of one person

Just spoil yourself as much as we used to do

When I am not there

Take your time at the gym, even for just ten minutes

Put on your favorite musics

And dance your weird moves on the treadmill

As if I were there laughing at you

When I am not there

Keep your Google Maps on

So if there are fires in Yaowarrat like the last time

Or if you lost again in Jatujak

Without my lead, you can escape and find way home

When I am not there

I guess you will skip time at the park

As you may not find a good spot just for one

And no one will chase the Komodos away

While you are deep in meditation

When I am not there

Remember to turn off the iron and the stoves

Whenever you go out or work

For I will not be there checking again

Preventing you from burning the house

When I am not there

Go to bed as early as you could

Don't try finishing a series every 3 days

Like what you always wish you could do

Without being scolded by me

Also, listen to sleep piano to fall as sleep easier

As I would not be there telling endless nonsense stories

Not realizing you have already been in your second dream

Now you've learned to make your own coffee

I hope you will learn to make many things else

By yourself or with someone else

Including your own happiness

Knowing that you are happy

Would mean the world to me

Even when I am not there

With you.